There are times when I really appreciate my family times when I have to talk to my father and allow him to define the righteousness of the lord. It’s hard living in hell auntie. Hard hearing and reading all the horror stories every day and not being shocked. Having to remind yourself of where you are and what makes it what it is. Worrying if it will be worse when your kids are adults, questioning if bringing them into this world was a wise thing. I have cousins who have elected not to have kids not to bring them into a world wrought with so much pain and suffering. I don’t want them to wish they were never born because life is so hard, but I can’t protect them from the trials and tribulations life has in store for them. I have to hope they remain in the Gnostic family where they will be safe.
