I see me, just me. I don’t think anything of it. I love you so much my husband. I think there are a lot of good-looking people in our group. I’m no exception. I love you all though.
I have felt the kind of thing Shawn described. I had a man follow me before I married Nick. While I was Will. He liked my accent he told me. He had the look of my death in his eyes and I was frozen with fear. He reached for my hand and I pulled away from him but he was real strong. He told me I was in an unsafe part of town, especially being a gay man. I never said anything after that and Sir Paul arrived as I was pulling away from him. That’s how I met Sir Paul. He took out his gun, pointed it, and demanded he released me and he told him he would not hesitate to pull the trigger. He also told him he would not shut to maim he was aiming at his head, he was shooting to kill. He told him he was a hellion and he didn’t spend much time being humane to inhumane individuals. He let me go and backed away, sensing Sir Paul was not messing around with him. He didn’t say anything to Sir Paul he just put his hands up and backed away, and then took off running. I knew he was going to kill me. I felt it. Sir Paul turned to walk away and I followed him. He turned and looked at me and smiled. He asked me if I needed a job and I nodded. I told him I was a chef and he said you’re hired. (big smile). He knew. I know he knew. I know where Mason got her talent from, her father. He was real good. He took me to my apartment paid to buy me out of my lease, and I never looked back. He told me I’d meet my man soon and when I met Nick he winked at me. Sir Paul God I miss him.
I do think we need to be more in tune with a person’s none verbal forms of communication and we have to stop needed verbal conformation to what is going on right in our face. Carmine I agree with you about that mother who allowed her husband to murder her and her children because she refused to accept what was so clearly right in front of her. I am tired of giving women a pass when they allow men to harm their children. I’m not buying the fear crap either. I think we know what kind of person we are married to. I agree that if we ignore those close to us some of the things they do will surprise us. With Justin, I think he kept trying to give Becca the benefit of the doubt because he likes her parents so much and she was a member of our Gnostic family. We can clearly be infiltrated. There is so much evil in the world all of us are bound to be touched by it in some way. It’s up to us to be aware of them and to act accordingly. We’ll be aware if we get that sixth sense fine-tuned. Ben made me uncomfortable as did Becca. I had no run ins with them but they both made me uncomfortable.
