I tell you one thing, I agree with Mark when he says we won’t address things because it makes us responsible for it. Once you acknowledge it you bare some of the responsibility for whatever you’re acknowledging. I knew I was married to a bad man. I knew what he was about almost immediately. But he was cute, I told myself he worked with my brother and he was fine. Every time he showed a side of himself that disturbed me, I told myself he worked with my brother, he was fine. I refused to deal with what I knew deep down inside. So, we might not know everything those close to us are doing when they are doing it, but we know they are up to something and it’s not good. My Mike was very scary at times and I knew he was capable of doing some underhanded things. After his accident I could no longer turn a blind eye. He just couldn’t mask his true self. He was bitter, resentful, and the hate that was at his core grew stronger and stronger practically every day. My point is, I agree, we have to stop ignoring what is happening right in our faces. I’m glad I see sincerity in my current husband, love, compassion, understanding, all the things that anyone could ask for, need, or want in a partner. And I love him.
I appreciate what Mason said as well. I think people, all people tend to have far too much pressure from society to be a particular way. I like being a Gnostic because I can be myself. I like being myself.
I also think I want to start fine-tuning and paying attention to my instinct, my sixth sense.
