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TOPIC: Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart?

Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2796

TJ
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Kelton you are the shit bro.

I am benevolent, this I know. I do have representatives I call on when the situations need’s a particular representative. Sometimes shit is scarier than you can handle period. I fear law enforcement and do not want anything to do with them, especially in the United States.

There are many things in this country that are disturbing but it’s obvious malevolent people are all over the world. To me they always prey on the weakest in a society. They are cowards, to chicken shit to stand up to someone who is their equal. They want to terrorize and torment those they know they can do that with without much opposition. I know because of what I’ve gone through in my young life.

My mother was beaten she says and I believe her. She says my biological father took me from her and she never saw me again until now. He then beat her so badly she could never have any more children. I know she has been greatly traumatized. He is in prison now and I hope life is hell for him.

Of course I prefer being around peaceful people and I am very content in my life. I most admire my birth mother for surviving, Mason for surviving, and all those who were abused as children and lived to tell us about it.

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Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2797

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Okay what about the mother in Oklahoma who stabbed her eleven-year-old daughter over fifty times because she said her three daughters were devils. It’s terrible that’s what it is and it turns my stomach.

I think I do have representatives but they are good just like my core self. I can’t imagine going through what Ashley experienced being so close to a literally killer. I’m surprised he didn’t try to kill his mother right in front of all of us Mary. I admire her bravery, her tenacity in regards to her wayward, malevolent son.

I have known some very troubled people, all made that way due to bad parents. The closest I’ve ever come to any real evil people is Becca who hated me and Benson who hated everyone. Like the judge, who I most admire, him and his lovely wife, I’m glad I haven’t had any more close encounters with malevolent people.

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Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2798

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I honestly see Kelton as a warrior just like Uncle Mike and I think that’s why he gets along so well with Carmine, Tony and Uncle Mike. I know he has a very intoxicating sense of humor and he’s a lot of fun all the time. He never changes. I guess that’s answers the question, who I most admire. Kelton can make you smile when you don’t want to smile and he isn’t trying to make you smile, he’s just keeping it 100 like Aunt Mason always says.

I have seen my share of ups and downs but I am certain I’m a benevolent person. I’m way to sensitive to be anything else. I used to do anything for friends but I learned it’s not worth it. What I should have wanted was good friends not bullies and bad friends. I was pulled into all manner of troubling situations because I wanted to be friends with the worst people. I can blame a lot of stuff on my mother and grandfather on my mother’s side, but my desire to have the school bully like me and befriend me was my problem. Like I said, I have learned it’s better to be around good decent people and I’m glad I wised up I did attract malevolent people because I was a target, a target with a wealthy father.

I feel like a new man and I know I’m on the right path. I really wish something would finally be done about people in law enforcement being allowed to torment one group of people even murder them. I guess this won’t change until the citizens in this country stop being racist and start doing the right thing.

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Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2799

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I think I’m a benevolent person and I agree most of us in the Gnostic group are this way if not all. I mean I don’t think a malevolent person would last long like Benson.

I do have representatives and gladly call them forward when needed. I know what it’s like to be in a abusive relationship and I realize it is because we both fell in love with each other’s representative and when the real us came out shortly after we were married neither of us was happy. Believe it or not he has since apologized to me about how things turned out between us, and I had to admit I was never myself before we got married. I was afraid to be me. I thought I’d run him off. I wanted him so bad. He was good looking, tall dark, and I loved the way he laughed and how much all the ladies just melted in his presence. None of my reasons were good enough reasons to marry someone. I think I’m like Miles. I wanted to be accepted and for some reason felt being accepted by the worse people, because they are the most popular. I wanted to be around the in crowd. I also know better now.

I am so disturbed by some of the stories of child abuse in the news. I too wish Nemesis would show up and personally intercede in the behalf of the innocent children.

The person I most admire is Mark. I think he is a prime example of a natural real leader.

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Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2800

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I am benevolent and I also believe I allow different parts of me to step in when I need them. Beth talked about marrying, saying that her first husband married one of her representatives and she married one of his. I think this happened to me or I saw what I wanted to see about my ex-wife. I also think it was a little bit of vanity on my part as well. When I think about what attracted me to my first wife I know it was her looks first and far-most. I overlooked everything else, even stuff I saw that I didn’t like early in the relationship. Things only got worse not better as I hoped and kept telling myself they would. I wanted her so bad I couldn’t see straight. As time went on I grew more and more miserable and finally I took my daughter and said good-bye. I was done and I learned my lesson. I ended up with a even prettier wife and she’s even more beautiful on the inside than she is on the out.

I realized I much before being around benevolent people and I know I’ve found this in the Gnostic faith. I found that I couldn’t get comfortable in my position with the police department I worked for. To many of the attitudes of fellow officers just weren’t the attitudes that peace officers should have. Officers can’t be racist. They are there to serve all the people not some of the people. All the people pay taxes and no one is paying taxes to have their relatives shot down in cold blood. It’s that simple. Taxes pay the salaries of law enforcement officers and that means we work for the public. All of the public.

In law enforcement you are exposed to all types of people. I would have been more comfortable if all of the malevolent people I was exposed to during my time at the police department were on the wrong side of the law but that was not the case.

My most admired person is the Judge and his family.

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Are we more Malevolent or Benevolent at heart? 5 years 11 months ago #2801

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I don’t think I’ve always been on the road of benevolence. I was being pruned to take over for my grandfather, which is why he is so upset. He was ready to pass the torch and I backed out, sensing I didn’t really want to go that far. I swear I heard a voice tell me to backup, not to travel the road my grandfather laid out before me. I was not that kind of person. At first, I thought I was imagining it but it planted a seed and I couldn’t shake it. I called Ryan out of the blue, it shocked him. He told me not to do it. In fact, he said the same thing I heard the voice say. He said it was a perilous round riddled with death and violence. If I took that step there would be no turning back. In the end I ran for my life and it was the end of my marriage as well. Of course, she enjoyed the life my grandparents afforded us, and for me to turn my back on them was insane. I married a woman my grandfather picked out of me and it was always a troubled marriage. As I look back over it all I can see the horror more clearly. I was in the den of hell and money did not comfort me. I took my children and made me exit. I missed my parents anyway, and my brothers and sister. I’ve never been happier than I am with my life now.

I know realize I am far more comforted and at peace in my soul where I am now and I know I made the right decision. I am benevolent at heart and this I now know. My most admired person I is my father. I love you pop!!!

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