Ooo the secrets. I’ve been a victim of this from the time I came into the world. I was lied to about who my father was, found out by accident and learned it is what tour my parents apart. I also learned I am ¼ African American, which was something my mother’s husband, someone I once called father, came to detest my mother and I about. He is a diehard white supremist and an avid trump supporter. My real father has passed away, dying under suspicious circumstances. My mother has remarried and her new husband had forced her to disown me which leaves no doubt in my mind my mother is a racist person as well. It is fine as I am all the better for it and I know they aren’t doing well financially. I do not communicate with them but I have cousins who tell me how bad things are for them. My mother was not there for me when Caleb passed away. She was not there for me when I went through what I went through with Ben. In fact she was not there for me when I went through what I went through with Erica’s natural father. I have found parenting figures within our Gnostic family and I am all the better for it. However, the damage done to me primarily from my mother, as she is the one who made decisions that greatly impacted my life, has left me broken, struggling to put myself together and be a good person. I know all to well what kind of damage secrets and lies can do to a life. I’ve lived through it.
