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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2326

Emily
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I have never been a lair because I know how devastating lies can be. I also know how bad secrets can be too because they are usually a secret to cover up something ugly. My father and I survived my mother’s secrets and lies and like all of you who have been through something like this, we are forever scared by what we went through. As a Gnostic, this kind of behavior is not in us and I know where I stand and who I stand with. I could never support a man like the one in the White House because he is reprehensible. He has no respect for anyone or anything. I think him and all who support him are without morals and that is a horrible way to be.

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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2327

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Secrets…Lies….Wooo, yeah, I know all about it from both ends of the spectrum. I was a very skilled liar, until karma hit my ass like a highspeed boomerang. As a liar I can tell you I did it because it was easy. I didn’t have to take responsibility for anything. I didn’t even thing about who I might or might not be hurting. I only thought about what was easy for me. Well, my eyes were open when I became the victim of a horrendous lie that almost cost me my freedom for a lifetime. It was then that I thought about all the lies I had told and wondered what they had done to the people I lied to and on. I have been on a quest to find and apologize to those I hurt lying and I’ve found some who’s lives were badly affected by my lies. I learned I had a son in one relationship and a daughter in another. I’m getting to know them now but it wasn’t easy. Man where they pissed with me. My daughter really needs me and I am glad I am there for her now. My son has a father but likes being able to call his real father and just talk. It hasn’t been easy but as a Gnostic, I had to do it. I love my kids, all of them. They are getting to know each other and my daughter thinks I am funny. My son thinks I’m good looking and that seems to make him proud to have met me and to spend time with me. He also things being married to Deb is cool. He really likes her. He says he will steal her from me when he’s older and she agrees. He also loves Carmine so much it makes me a little emotional. The mothers have forgiven me because I am now compensating for the time I was absent in their lives. I thank The Most High I am able to compensate for my absents and make amends. I am so glad I am on the right path now. So glad.

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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2328

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Woo OMG, I was so proud of my husband. Let me dry my eyes I have never seen him cry but when he told me he was very emotional and we set out to find them. Thanks Mike and Mark for your help with that. I love those kids and I wish they could come live with us. Tony’s daughter might be on her way because her mother is a piece of work to say the least.

Now…I lied once and it was a very bad thing. It was corrected soon enough but it was an ugly thing and I’m sure the person I lied on is scared by the lie. I hated my uncle because he was mean to his kids and his nieces and nephews. I accused him of touching me and he went through it. When he was about to go to jail I admitted he didn’t do it but I told him that was how much I hated him. My mother said she hated me and always would and I think she did. She was never nice to me so nothing really changed except he became quiet and withdrawn. He said he was more stung by me telling him how much I hated him. He knew it was true because of what I did. I have apologized now and recently but he does not accept my apology and that’s fine. I told him he’s still mean and he can fester in it for all I care. I meant it. But for what it’s worth that was not the way to handle things and I am remorseful for what I did. I do have a clear conscious about it because I did all I could do and that is sincerely apologize and despite his unwillingness to forgive me I am truly sorry I did what I did.

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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2329

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What a sensitive topic for me. Secrets and lies so badly impacted my life it took me down a dark path that hardened my heart and made it easy for me to put everyone’s feeling behind me and only care about my own. I’m not a liar but I was heartless. Yes a women did this to me, well two women, my sister and my first wife. What did it do, drove me to the bottle, to the brothels, and to some drug use. I did not want any attachments, any strings. I was like this for years. Honestly, I didn’t fully begin to recover until I started coming to the meetings with my nephew and Mason took an interest in me. When my nephew told me she thought I was cute something happened to me inside. All the ice melted and I literally stumbled. I tried to push it away and Michael gave me a reason to do that. But when he moved out of the way I had to face my open heart once again. It was scary and it still is. Every time I have opened my heart it has been broken. I am powerless I have to trust again and I think I’m safe this time because of my faith and the woman who melted the ice. I am healing finally and I am free of the damage secrets and lies caused me.

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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2330

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Okay first of all, have you ladies seen Kelton? I mean we were all checking him out shoot. I was like damn, who is that? I was head over hills in love with Michael but my heart was wounded and that wound open a door that allowed me to see another. This is what lies will do. This is why they are destructive and I’ll say secrets as well. Sometimes it is so painful all you can do is stumble around until you find a clearing. It is devastating. See, when a person is hurting they don’t even realize that the wall of love is coming down. The pain just strips it away and at that point there is no recovery, it’s over. I didn’t realize I was at that point until I saw another and felt my heart leap in my chest again. I still felt pain for the love I had lost, but there was hope. I don’t know what kept him coming to the meetings but it was good for me to see him there. I didn’t realize how good until some time later. The truth set me free but it was painful and is now very painful for Michael. I can only imagine how hearing what all of it did to me does to him because he is a good man. He is kind-hearted. I hate breaking his heart but I know I had nothing to do with what ultimately happened to my heart. So yes, secrets and lies can be very destructive and very painful for everyone involved.

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The Truth 6 years 2 months ago #2331

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Luke, I think the memo makes Trump look worse. It proves nothing except the investigation started long before the whole Russia situation with him so all of his ranting is feudal. He’s going to bit off more than he can chew real soon and I say let a fool hang himself and drag all the fools around him down with him.

Mason, I hurt now but you hurt for years. I have accepted what I did to you, to us, and I am glad Kelton is there to heal your broken heart. I like him. He is good. You two need each other and I could do nothing but get out of the way. If I had not been out prowling none of this would have happened so, I failed to make and be true to a committed relationship and your heart took all it could take as a result of it and it has found hope in another. This is as it should be and in the end all I can do is see what my actions caused and mourn my loss.

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