Carm I did look up to you. You were a fantastic example and I have always been so very proud of you. I think most of my bad experience with people who lack self-control has come from those who use fear to force people to do what they want. I cried for my brother many nights because I was threatened by our father and finally mom allowed me to go live with our uncle who lived in America. He was older, sick, and for most of my young life it was just him and I. I passed away when I was fourteen, and my mother came down. Mom ended up staying because at this time pop had died and our uncle left her very well off. Well, he left it to me and you Carm and mom was the guardian. He never had kids of his own, you know uncle Elly Nick, Mike, Vic, and Mary. I’m sure if you Chris and Brad ever met him. Did you? Also now know Uncle Elly was Gay. I didn’t know what to make of him when I was young but I learned when I was older what was happening. He was nice to me, very generous and kind. But he could be mean. If anyone bothered me he turned into a mean man fast. I always wanted Carmine as well but dad refused to let anyone take Carmine. I remember him Carm dad was the devil to me. I think really controlling mean people have no damn self-Control
