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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3467

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I want my siblings to love me. I really wish Braxton could find it in his heart to forgive me. I don’t want him to go through his life feeling resentment because of something I did. It bothers me all the time and I cry because I want to hug him but he steps away from me every time I try. I miss our parents so much and I wish I had been able to see into the future and know how much I’d miss them. God mother, I’m not sure I will be all right some times. I love my husband but I’m so consumed with guilt it’s hard to breath. I want the pain to stop for all of us and I wonder if it would do that for my siblings and me if I weren’t here anymore. I just wonder.

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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3468

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Yes, the separation played a huge part in Rod and I’s marriage. I hated, I said it, hated his parents. I felt they were ruining our lives. I couldn’t believe they took our children and turned then against us. I thought I was going to die without my daughter. As the years passed I grew stronger and stronger. But I still feel as if I was robbed of special mother daughter moments. I feel as if I wasn’t there for my handsome sons and I was denied access to my grandchildren. I kept wondering why we were being punished, and I did feel as if we were being punished. Rod thinks we had other problems but for me it was his parents. That was our only problem and it was huge. It caused me to resent him when I wasn’t feeling sorry for him. It was hard watching what his parents were doing to their only son. Their only child. I couldn’t understand it. Rod’s father wanted more children but that selfish wife of his refused to have more than one child. She didn’t want her body disfigured. So she had herself fixed after Rod. It was horrible for me. I’m glad they are trying to be nice to their son now but I never want anything to do with them, ever!

Ah…Ryan now I know why you were so distant from me. You are right my son, I did take it out on your father because it was his parents and I was wrong. Thank you for forgiving me and for being brave enough to stand up for what is right. I love you sweetheart I really do.

I’m glad we are all back together again and Josh…I’m so sorry about all that you went through. I hate hearing about it and I’m glad it’s better now.

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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3471

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Kay wrote:

I want my siblings to love me. I really wish Braxton could find it in his heart to forgive me. I don’t want him to go through his life feeling resentment because of something I did. It bothers me all the time and I cry because I want to hug him but he steps away from me every time I try. I miss our parents so much and I wish I had been able to see into the future and know how much I’d miss them. God mother, I’m not sure I will be all right some times. I love my husband but I’m so consumed with guilt it’s hard to breath. I want the pain to stop for all of us and I wonder if it would do that for my siblings and me if I weren’t here anymore. I just wonder.

Courtney…listen your parents loved all of you and they are looking down and they are so proud of all of you, But you Braxton right now. listen none of that shit is going to bring your parents back. I know you read what's in the threads. Un Cool little dude. If you think for a minute you mom and dad would want you to be treating your sister so bad she isn't sure she should be alive they would not be happy at all. Courtney, Braxton is not doing anyone any favors harboring his anger. You know what, some times you have to say fuck it, move on. You can’t make anyone love you, but you can love you, and you can know The Most High loves and forgives you knowing you were a misguided child but now you have put away those childish things and you are a mature young lady. Hug your husband, know your god parents love you very much. Know your parents loved you unconditionally. They had health issues, they were older Court. Stop carrying that weight. Put it down, just set it down, look up at the sun, the blue sky, and thank the Most High for all that you have. You have a lot.

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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3472

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Kay wrote:

I want my siblings to love me. I really wish Braxton could find it in his heart to forgive me. I don’t want him to go through his life feeling resentment because of something I did. It bothers me all the time and I cry because I want to hug him but he steps away from me every time I try. I miss our parents so much and I wish I had been able to see into the future and know how much I’d miss them. God mother, I’m not sure I will be all right some times. I love my husband but I’m so consumed with guilt it’s hard to breath. I want the pain to stop for all of us and I wonder if it would do that for my siblings and me if I weren’t here anymore. I just wonder.

Amen thank you Michael. Courtney…you mom loved you darling and there were no strings or conditions attached to that love. You father did as well and we know. We knew them well. Braxton is now on his own with that. Don’t let him project that onto you. Live for you mother and father. Be happy because they want that for you. I’ll see you in a couple days and I love you darling.

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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3473

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I have to confess, being married to Josh is like having my Caleb back and I thank God every day for giving me and the kids, our life back. Josh is everything I need and he knows how to handle me. I need a man like that. It took me this long in my life to realize I can be somewhat overbearing, Josh knows just what to do and say, Caleb didn’t always know how to handle that side of me. Josh is like a healthy stronger version of Caleb. He was so sick. He didn’t want anyone to know how bad it was. But…that’s my confession.

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October Meeting! 5 years 5 months ago #3475

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I’ve been down too fellas. When my first wife took everything from me and left me broke with bad credit sleeping in my car, that didn’t run that well I resigned myself to the fate of assured death I always feared as a child. I always wondered how it would finally claim me and I was certain I would starve to death, freeze to death, or be killed when someone attempted to steal my car. Something told me to check out the sight and Sir Paul actually asked me if he could talk to me. The Most High snatched my out of hell too Kelton and I am so very grateful. Sir Paul offered me a job, he needed me he said. He asked me if I would relocate and I told him yes. Things have been looking brighter ever sense. I have to confess I thank The Most High ever night for leading me to the website. It was my life line.

Courtney, NO! Life would not be better without you. That would only intensify the loss of your parents. Cleave to those who do forgive and love, try to not focus on anyone who struggles to forgive and love you. I’m not saying stop loving them, I’m saying embrace those who are more willing to embrace you for your peace of mind.

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