About the evil eye thing. I have seen this several times and it is like looking into pools of lifelessness. I found myself wondering what goes on in their head. I even asked. One of them said, evil it’s was just a part of who he was. Of course he was a rapist. He said he realized he was soulless when he turned twelve. He realized he liked causing pain. It made him feel and he normally does not feel. He was an abused kid, his mother was his abuser. He hated her and he hates all women. He killed his mother and said nothing gave him better joy. It was chilling. I mean the room even began to feel cold. He was the first one to tell me there is no devil. He said people like him are the evil in the world and there are plenty of us he said. So, yes, in law enforcement you do come face to face with evil on occasion and trust me the ones like this stand out because all those who break the law or commit crimes, even murder, are not soulless.
My confession is fathering a child when I was a teenager. The mother would never allow me to see him and it tore me up inside. I don’t know anything about him to this day and I don’t think it is wise for me to interfere in his life at this point. He was born in 1973 so he’s around Luke’s age. I often find myself reaching out and touching Luke because he makes me think about my son. He has blond hair and blue eyes just like Luke. I pray he had a good life, that he is still doing well in his life, and I wish I could have been a part of his life.
Kelton…thank God for interfering and keeping you alive, bringing you to us, and blessing us with you warmth, kindness, sense of humor, and compassion. I’m truly glad you are a part of our Gnostic family.
