Another tear jerking article. Okay, the moment in my memory that was life changing was when my uncle told me I was retarded and would never be much. He said it calmly, told me my father through me into a wall and I almost died and the doctors said I was mentally retarded as a result of abuse I suffered as an infant. I believed him and didn’t expect much of myself or out of things in my life.
I then stumbled upon a website many years ago, meet sir Paul, Mason, Jay, I talked to them and they treated me normal. I couldn’t wait to chat with them. I rushed home from work and hurried to the computer so I could talk to them. My first wife hit me with a pot while I was online and broke the computer. I tried to get up after she hit me but I couldn’t. I fell and passed out. I don’t know who called the police but I woke up in an ambulance and they told me she was off to jail. If I was retarded that blow knocked the sense back into me. Her family got her out but I didn’t want to stay with her. I worked for her father and he fired me. I lost everything which is why I was away for so long. It was okay because as everything went away I felt like I was shedding my old skin and what was underneath was much better. I realized I wasn’t retarded, maybe a little slow but not retarded. I was unloved and there is a difference. I was accepting this when Sir Paul found me. It shocked me that he was looking for me. He said I stopped talking to him abruptly and he knew something was wrong. He changed my life and I didn’t know how to act because I wasn’t use to people caring. He told me to just keep being who I was and I realized he, all of my Gnostic family, saw who I was inside. It changed my life forever and now I know I’m not even slow. Just easy natured.
