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TOPIC: Moments in our Memory

Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1453

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This is the Article for May. There is an activity that goes along with it. We all have to recall the thing that affected us most negatively, and a positive recollection and discuss it here. What kind of lasting affect did this memories have on you and how did they change your life. Don't rush to respond to this new article because it's important to do the activity of your portfolio first. The spring meeting is in May and we will be discussing what is in our activities in more detail at that time.
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Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1454

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I would have to say the moments that stand out for me know are the ones that really changed the path I was on and all of them have a intervention or had a profound effect on me as I saw revelation in what happened. I question everything I always have. Memories like having a dog chase me, singling me out from a group of kids who always teased him. I felt sorry for him gained to that post in the heat, all night and all day. I always looked at him with empathetic eyes. One day on our way to school I stopped the kids from teasing him and he broke the chain and came after us. He snapped at me so I turned and ran to the school. He chased me the whole way there. The shot him with a tranquilizer and I stood over him for a moment and then knelt down beside him. I just rubbed him. It occurred to me, he just wanted to be with me. But when he snapped and growled at me it scared me. He could have caught me if he wanted but he didn’t, He just ran with me, never snapping or growling again. I find myself thinking about moments like that more than all the noise in between. It is these moments that changed how I thought, how I felt.

I was an abused child and my need to understand how my mother could do and allow this lead me to be mean to my little cousin when he came to live with us. I hit him on his but and made him cry. I felt terrible right away so I hugged and kissed him and told him I was sorry. I cried and didn’t like how it made me feel. I never did it again and nevery understood how my mother allowed her children to be so severely abused, but I vowed to never treat my children that way and I didn’t. I was ten or eleven when that happened. Now all the other stuff is noise, it’s that things that made me who I am that matter to me now, the memories of times when things changed my life.
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Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1455

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First I want to say Loreen you did a fantastic job girlfriend!!! :cheer:

Wow Mason okay I had to go back and redo some things. When I think back I have to say when I witnessed a rape and I felt powerless to stop it, paralyzed with fear and uncertainty, I was forever scared. I actually walked into your house Rhena and saw your father beating and forcing your mother to have sex with him. I gasped and he turned and glared at me. I was paralyzed with fear but only for a moment. I saw a demon glaring at me. I ran out of the house and he ran after me screaming for me to get back in the house. My dad was still sitting in the driveway thank God and when he saw me running toward the car an him chasing me he sprang out of the car and met him head on. He held up his hand and tried to back into the house. I told him where I thought you guys might be and when we got there dad called the police and we went back to your house. I can’t get the image out of my head.

My father had to go through so much to help me understand what I witnessed and although my aunt was willing to drop any charges my father was not. He went to jail for rape and domestic violence. That’s what stands out in my memory as a negative and a positive and helped me define what a good man does and what a bad one does. I lost all respect for my aunt and it wasn’t long before my cousins came to live with us for about five years.
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Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1456

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Well once Mason helped me put this activity into perspective I was able to tone out the noise as well and focus on the things that affected me in a way that changed the course of my life. I would say it was seeing a man shot to death when I was six. I have to agree, witnessing a murder affected me in a way I can’t describe to this day. I shook me to my core and still does to this day. I can remember it like it was yesterday.

I’d also have to say learning dad had a second family devastated me, affecting me in ways I still struggle with today. I couldn’t understand why he was doing that to mom. Mom was so sweet and good I couldn’t understand it. Also some of the things he told us disturbed me. In one breath he told us not to discriminate and in another he told us to have as little to do with black people as possible, definitely don’t mess with a black girl. Everything he said I vowed to do the opposite especially after I followed his advice and ended up with a demon for a wife. That is my first wife. So many things he did affected my and framed the road I took in life especially early in my life.
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Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1457

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I would have to agree with Mason, I find myself reflecting more one those things that stunned me and literally changed my life. The main thing that stands out is how close I come to death all the time but something snatches from death’s jaws in the nick of time. I was in an accident on prom night. I lost two friends and I survived. We were hit by a drunk driver. I woke in the hospital asking why was I spared. I paid closer attention to my instinct going forward because I sensed the car was going to keep coming and hit us but I kept my mouth shut.

Rebecca almost killed me and again I was snatched out of the jaws of death. I learned I have to again pay attention to my instinct and not ignore it.

I joined Mark on an excursion and it all came together. This is why I have been spared I am here to make a difference. My new wife, my new faith, all make my entire life make sense and it’s a good feeling.
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Moments in our Memory 6 years 10 months ago #1458

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I meet sure Paul who saw something in me no one else cared to see. I was struggling to survive in the US, looking for work as a chef, gay so I thought, and having no success. I ran into Sir Paul by accident and I knew my life was about to change right away. It did change. I went on to fall in love, discover I wasn’t gay I was female, and give birth to three beautiful children. I can hardly remember the noise as Mason calls it, because the life changing occurrences are what stand out in my memory now.
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