I actually thought God was selfish and mean. To me it seemed like we had to give so much, sacrifice so much and he never did anything. I was like my sister, I couldn’t take any of it seriously. I went through the motions from time to time but I never took it serious because you can see the racism, the sexism, and the lack of concern for children period. I mean what is really going on, I often wondered. I just didn’t couldn’t see what the church was doing for people except dividing them more and more.