I haven’t wanted to really see what is right in front of us all even in light of all the stuff in the news about how officers are gunning down black men. I have tried to hid from it at the risk of losing my kids, because Caleb’s father, who struggles with me period, was prepared to take me to court for his children, concerned about how they are being raised. He is all right with Josh and is willing to give me a chance to prove I can handle my life a better than I have in the recent past. I can blame some of my unwillingness to see what is actually happening on my parents but not all. I have to take responsibility for being complacent. I’m glad I am taking responsibility now and I have to admit I feel better about myself. When you are harboring that kind of hate, because racism is hate, you never feel good inside. I like feeling good inside and I genuinely feel happier. I’m done with the ugliness of discrimination because I agree with Obama, we are all Americans, all entitled to the same benefits as Americans, as human beings.