I think what has happened in this country to so many none white people, is horrific. I’m watching the news right now and My God, why can’t trump just get this and die? Why can’t all of his supporters who believe it’s a hoax just get it and die? Why can it reach the racists, hateful people who don’t believe in the science anyway, why can’t it just get those people? Some people just need to go. They are full of hate and have the nerve to be proud of all the pain and suffering their ancestors caused other races and all the pain and suffering they continue to cause in this day and age. There was a time when I wanted to embrace my whiteness and was proud I can pass, but not anymore. I had to announce I’m black at work and a few people weren’t surprise, but…but a lot of people were. I just looked at them and cleared my throat, then I told them I was also gay. I slowly lifted my head to see what they would say. It was very quiet. Then one of my co-workers said, “No Way, he’s not gay. He might be black, but he is not gay, my brother is gay and he is not gay.” I told him I wasn’t a flamer but I am gay. I stayed calm him reached for an apple and walked away, allowing them to soak it all in. He followed me, telling me I was married, I had kids. I nodded and told him I was married again, and this time to a man. I told him I’ve never been happier. I left him scratching his head and wondering what the hell to think. I’m the boss. They don’t know what to do with me now. When I went back to my desk they were staring at me and I asked them why they were looking at me like the black gay devil that infiltrated their department. One of them burst into laughter making the others laugh too. I cleared my throat and nodded. I told them they were right, put my feet up and smiled. I admitted I’m the shit. I just arched an eyebrow and patted myself on the back. I’m a bad Mutha fucka, that’s what I said and the black people in the department started laughing. There are four of us in all, black folk that is. Damn my wicked black ass, I mumbled. And the rest of them started laughing. I’m waiting every now for the shit to hit the fan and I got idea who the ring leaders will be. I’m just waiting.
We have to leave and start over Uncle Mark…things will never be all right for us here. I want my forty-acres and my damn mule! I said that too. They were laughing and my angry black ass is serious!